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5 Reasons Dale Cooper Is the Best FBI Agent Ever

By Jenna Blake Morris

A lot of the time, when people think of quirky FBI agents in surreal circumstances, Special Agent Fox Mulder seems to come to mind.

I totally get it--The X-Files is one of my favourite shows in the history of the universe, and Mulder's definitely my favourite character from the show. He wants to believe, and because of that, you can't help but want to believe in him, too.

AT the same time, though, if we're talking about offbeat FBI agents whose minds are remarkably open to the supernatural, paranormal, or just plain weird, it's only fair to give due acknowledgement to Dale Cooper--the agent assigned to the Laura Palmer case in the 90s television series Twin Peaks.

There are loads of reasons why I love Coop, but for the sake of brevity, I've tried to narrow my list down to the characteristics that really define him. So here goes.

1) He takes quirky to a whole new level.

When he first arrives in Twin Peaks, nobody's really sure what to make of him. He's a guy who regularly talks to his voice recorder, who gestures for everyone to pause while he first samples a mug of coffee, and who takes up whittling for the heck of it. He's hilarious, but often without meaning to be--it's thanks to this blend of social awkwardness and funny earnestness, and it means that he's offbeat even in the smallest actions. Quite endearing, really.


2) He takes his job seriously, but he's still got this childlike wonder about the smallest things.

In a lot of ways, Coop's job is all he has--he's one of those workaholic guys who's dedicated his whole life to his calling, and he's never bitter about that. It seems like it would be a hard life to live, being sent from place to place and investigating humanity's darkness, but Coop balances all of that with this innocent delight in everyday things. Like the stunning array of doughnuts at the Twin Peaks sheriff station, for example, or getting invited to go fly fishing, or going camping for the first time. As much as I love jaded, cynical investigators, Cooper is the physical embodiment of a breath of fresh air.



3) His methods may be questionable, but he gets stuff done.

Remember how I mentioned he was open-minded? Yeah. He kind of takes it to extremes sometimes, but he makes it work for himself. More than once, he uses his bizarre dreams as tools to unravel mysteries in the case he's working. And then there's the time he threw rocks at a glass bottle in an experiment to narrow his focus on a list of potential suspects...


4) He's surrounded himself with awesome people.

Because Twin Peaks is a small, close-knit town guarding some serious secrets, most of its inhabitants viewed Coop as an outsider. But his genuine enthusiasm for the town eventually warms most people up to him--and because he works closely with the people from the sheriff's department, they're the people he gets closest to. His friendship with deputies Hawk and Andy is great, but it's his odd-couple dynamic with the Twin Peaks sheriff, Harry Truman, that takes centre stage.


5) He's arguably psychic.

In one of Coop's visions (kind of... it's too spoilerific to explain it any better than that), someone tells him, "I'll see you again in twenty-five years. He never saw that character again throughout the series.

Twenty-five years after Twin Peaks was cancelled, it's making a comeback in 2016.

If that's not insanely wizard, I don't know what is.


Because Twin Peaks will be returning in 2016--and because you now officially know that Dale Cooper is a guy worth knowing--there's never been a better time to catch up on the series. There are only two seasons (thirty episodes total), so it's not an intimidating series to tackle, and the whole thing is on Netflix.

If you decide to check it out, let me know what you think! And if you've seen Twin Peaks before, what were your thoughts? Who's your favourite FBI agent?

Recap of 2014 & Our 2015 Wishlist


2014 was a good year in fandom. Character development, announcements, and new content made this year a blast. However, it was also a hard year. Character deaths, painful moments, and cancellations made this year difficult. Between the highs and the lows, 2014 was jam-packed with things that affected our fangirl hearts. Today I've gathered together the Fangirl Initiative team to highlight the good and the bad. We also have high hopes for 2015, so we're presenting our wishlists for our fandoms in the coming year. 2015, here we come!

Note: Spoilers, such as major character injuries or deaths, are blanked out. Highlight them to read, like this: Hello!

Amanda Horn

Favorite Moments of 2014: 
  • One of my favorite moments in any of my fandoms this past year was on the show NCIS: Los Angeles when Deeks and Kensi FINALLY decided to be together. After way too much, “We can’t be together because of reasons,” they just decided, “So it’s crazy? Let’s be crazy!” Also it happened on Christmas, which just makes it a million times better.
  • But I also seriously loved that Natasha and Steve in the Marvel Universe are basically best friends now. It is the best ever.
Hardest moments of 2014:

The hardest moment? Seeing Fili, Kili and Thorin die in The Hobbit. I knew it was coming, but I didn’t want it to happen. I’m still in mourning. Way, way too many feels.

Wishlist for 2015: 

What do I want to see in 2015? I don’t have a huge list for this (I try to take stuff as it comes in my fandoms.). But I’m really excited to see some more Clint and Natasha adorableness in Avengers: Age of Ultron. They are the best.

Andrea Wiesner

Just to be clear, I haven't gotten through all of my shows from 2013-present. But I'll try my best to use what I have seen, for this post!

Best moments of 2014:
Hmm, probably that there were so many awesome new shows! Girl Meets World, Gotham, The Flash, Scorpion, and The Librarians... just to name a few! ;) Of course, the awesomeness doesn't end with those, nor does it cover all the good from returning stuff! But I think, between that and being introduced to older stuff (new to me, like Sherlock) or getting back into old favorites has been fun.

In terms of music, the band Breath of Soul having a new album finally, makes me extremely happy. (but I'm kinda biased, lol)

Worst moments of 2014:
Anytime there was a missing person (here's looking at you, Castle!), or death (Under the Dome, for example) on one of my shows. Or when I learned one or more were cancelled (The Tomorrow People, especially)

Wishlist for 2015:
More excitement and rollercoaster emotions (mostly excitement) for me. Some happiness for the characters that are hurting, and an upshake (evil of me, I know) for the comfortable ones... it's what makes us see them tick. (which is the most fun, for us writers) :P And... getting caught up on all of my stuff, while delving into wonderful new ones.

Bailey Bastien

Favorite moments of 2014: 
Okay. It didn’t actually happen in 2014 since the movies were released several years ago, but I introduced my family to Harry Potter in the fall and it’s been pretty cool watching them enjoy and get really into both the books and movies.
(Other favorites that actually happened last year: Divergent, Mockingjay Part 1, and Captain America: The Winter Soldier.)

Hardest moments of 2014: 
Ooh, so many hard moments. I’d have to say that the scene in Captain America: The Winter Soldier where Bucky’s wiped after recognizing Cap on the bridge and Fili/Kili/Thorin dying in The Hobbit: Battle of the Five Armies are tied as the absolute hardest. Also Dean becoming a demon. That was completely awful and hurt my feels.

Wishlist for 2015: 
I’m really looking forward to seeing how Uriah is portrayed in Insurgent. That’s probably my biggest wish: that they don’t completely butcher his humor and how he interacts with Tris.

Izzy Stevenson

Favorite Moments of 2014:
  • Oswald. 
  • Just Oswald in general. 
  • Oswald rising in power. 
  • Oswald and Jim. 
  • Oswald and his mom. 
  • And the time Oswald stole the show in THAT scene. You know which scene I'm talking about.



Hardest Moments of 2014:
  • Honestly, 2014 was pretty great. The only thing bad I can think of was thinking about Eddie eventually going bad. Just thinking about it.

(Source: Geoff Berkshire/zap2it)

Wishlist For 2014:
Of course, my wish list is made up entirely of Gotham wishes -

  • Season Two being announced as Eddie’s season (please happen, please happen, please)
  • A scene with Eddie and Oswald
  • More interesting scenes with Oswald and his mother
  • Bruce meeting his other future nemeses

Jaime Heller

Favorite moments of 2014:
  • When the Flash and the Arrow worked together to defeat the villain plotting to bomb Starling City. 
  • When Sam Wilson joined Steve Rogers’ ragtag team of rebellion against Hydra. 
  • When Hiccup rode dragons with his mother. 
  • When Finnick Odair was reunited with Annie Cresta
  • When the eagles arrived at the battle of five armies (with Radagast along for the ride)
  • When Legolas did anything in The Hobbit. 
  • When Chris Pine did a William Shatner impersonation while singing “Agony” in Into the Woods.
  • When Sherlock returned and John punched him in the face three times. 
  • When Psych ended with laughter, a proposal, and a reference to Monk. 
Hardest moments of 2014:
  • When Steve knocked off Bucky’s muzzle and Bucky said: “Who the hell is Bucky?” 
  • (also when Bucky whispered: “But he knew me.”)
  • When Bilbo sat next to Thorin and said: “The eagles are coming.” 
  • When the line of Durin ended and the other dwarves were left standing over the destruction. 
  • When I finished The River of Time series and dealt with the Black Plague.
  • When Rocket the raccoon got drunk and spilled out his true feelings about being a genetically 
  • engineered, cyborg creature. 
  • When Oliver Queen got stabbed with a sword and thrown off a cliff. 

Wishlist for 2015:
  • I hope Agent Carter does justice for the character and time period. 
  • I would like Cinderella to have an interesting twist to the story. 
  • I don’t want Oliver Queen to be permanently dead, but I also don’t want him to come back to life in a cheesy way or without a valid explanation
  • I hope Avengers Age of Ultron addresses what the characters have been doing during everything else and also reveals something about the remains of SHIELD and Coulson. 
  • I want another crossover with The Flash and Arrow
  • I desperately want Winter by Marissa Meyer to live up to the glorious fairy tale re-telling the rest of the Lunar Chronicles does. Please, please, don’t mess this one up. 
  • I would like Star Wars: The Force Awakens to be more like the original trilogy than the new-ish trilogy. 
  • I hope Mockingjay Part 2 is less painful than the book (but I highly doubt it will be)
  • I hope Maze Runner: The Scorch Trials movie isn’t boring like the book. 
  • I would like Jurassic World to be both exciting and terrifying and overall make me love dinosaurs again  like the other Jurassic Park movies.

Jenna Blake Morris

Favorite moment of 2014: 
Maybe this is cheating, but I'm going to have to go with an entire episode-- Supernatural's "Fan Fiction." It
had all the things that make the show great, all rolled into one nostalgic, celebratory package: humor, meta insanity, an interesting monster to gank, and some good old-fashioned broments. Plus, the return of the Samulet. Kind of. It was everything I'd been hoping for from the 200th, but somehow better.

Hardest moment of 2014: 
Four words to strike flinching pain into any Supernatural fan: "I'm proud of us." I'm going to have to go with that little scene, plus all the sulfuric aftermath that followed. But an Honorable Mention ribbon goes to the episode where the Ghostfacers pulled a Journey and went their separate ways, because that was just messed up.

Wishlist for 2015: 
Tragically, my favorite book series (Maggie Stiefvater's The Raven Cycle) is coming to a close this year. The author has promised some pain, both directly and indirectly, so I'm not sure how well things will end for the characters. But all I really want is for Adam Parrish to get a decently happy ending--after all he's gone through, he deserves it.

Mirriam Neal

2014 was a big year in television. A BIG YEAR. AN EXCITING YEAR. A lot of things happened, and there are a lot of things I hope to happen in 2015. Let’s take a look.

The most memorable TV events of 2014 were (in no particular order)…
  • Revolution got cancelled. Okay. I just decided to start with the bad news. It had good ratings, an epic plot, amazing characters, and BAM. Cancelled. Why. Ugh. But, on to the amazingness.
  • We got two of the best villains ever in the forms of Dark Stiles (Teen Wolf) and Peter Pan (Once Upon a Time). Out of the two, I might have to pick Peter Pan, but the Nogitsune is an extremely close runner-up. They channel their badness with ease and make it look good. Even sympathetic at times.
  • I stopped shipping Damon and Elena. Seriously, someone, get Elena off the show. Damon deserves someone better. At least put Elena with Kai and give us something interesting. Forever came out, and is still holding steady (in spite of the Hannibal-ripoff mid-season finale there. Cough. Yeah, we noticed).
  • AGENT CARTER HAPPENED, PEOPLE. And better than happened – they’re taking it straight to series! Wooohooo! 
  • I stopped /NOT/ shipping Klaus and Cami and started shipping them for real. Because  let’s face it, unless there’s a supermassive crossover, Klaroline can’t continue. 
Now, to the Powers that Be, here is my wishlist for 2015.
  1. Bellarke. Make it happen. Make. It. Happen.
  2. Bring Peter Pan back to Once Upon a Time. Please.
  3. Maybe even bring DarkStiles back. Yeah.
  4. Lots of hugging on Supernatural. And maybe rescue Adam, that would be cool.
  5. Have Ward return to S.H.I.E.L.D. SKYEWARD FOREVER.
  6. Also, FitzSimmons. Somebody say SOMETHING about ANYTHING.
  7. Bellarke. Did I mention Bellarke?
  8. COULD WE GET A SILM ARILLION TV SERIES? I WILL WORK FOR IT. I WILL. I PROMISE. JUST CAST MAEDHROS WELL. 
  9. Also, bring Peter Pan back. 
  10. There’s talk of reviving Pushing Daisies with a movie or a musical or something. I say yes. Go for it. DO IT. DO THE THING.
  11. Peter Pan. Bring him back.

Paige Kelly

Favorite moments of 2014: 
  • The Hobbit: Battle of the Five Armies coming out! Even though it was an emotional film... still a great ending. 
  • Guardians of the Galaxy being released in theatres. 
  • Captain America: The Winter Soldier and all the character development that happened. 
Hardest moments of 2014: 
  • Kili, Fili, and Thorin dying in The Battle of the Five Armies and Bilbo, the dwarves, and Tauriel's grief... so sad! 
  • The Hobbit films being over and having to say one last goodbye to Middle-earth (thank goodness we can always return). 
  • Groot "dying" in Guardians, although that had more of a happy ending. 

Wishlist for 2015: 
  • More Tolkien stuff? Nah, I guess I don't want Peter Jackson deviating from Tolkien's plans tooooo much, but I would never mind another trip back to Middle-earth. 
  • News of a live action, actually-true-to-the-book Howl's Moving Castle film being made, although that's more of a dream than it'll ever be reality (one can still dream, though). 
  • And news of a Queen's Thief movie series being made, although that dream is also far away.

Rica Wiersema

Favorite moments of 2014:
  • Going to the midnight premiere of "The Ninja Turtles."
Hardest moments of 2014: 
  • Going to the midnight premiere of "The Ninja Turtles."
Wishlist for 2015: 
  • Sheldon Cooper ought to make some sort of further commitment to Amy Farrah Fowler.
  • I'd like to see Walden Media figure out what they're doing with the rest of "Narnia."
  • "Firefly" needs to come back.

Sarah Munson

Happiest Moments of 2014:
  • FINALLY getting the third season of Sherlock! And solving the mystery left by the second season.
  • After a wait almost as long as the Sherlock hiatus, the final book in my favorite series, The River of Time by Lisa Bergren, released. Oh. My. Word. If you haven’t read this series yet, do it. Please, do it. And then tell me about it, so I can relieve the mixture of triumph and anguish.
  • The Avengers: Age of Ultron trailer was more amazing than I dared to hope.
  • The final Hobbit movie was also amazing. I’m not sure it should go under “happiest moments,” considering how much I cried, but it was bittersweet and brilliant, and almost all I could have wished for as the last goodbye. And that song- Billy Boyd singing, “The Last Goodbye!” I don’t think any other song mesmerized me in 2014 like that one.
  • I know there’s been mixed feelings about Benedict Cumberbatch as Dr. Strange, but I was thrilled from the start. Especially since I heard somewhere that Dr. Strange has encountered Loki in the comics. Fingers crossed…
Hardest Moments of 2014:
  • The Battle of the Five Armies. Yes, the Hobbit movie made me ecstatic, but it also left me crying and rocking myself quietly. It was partly because of the tragic scenes, and partly because this was my final farewell to Middle Earth movies. What will I look forward to next December?
  • Watching Guardians of the Galaxy. This wasn’t hard emotionally; it was just painful for other reasons. I never had high expectations for the film, but so many people told me it was “the best Marvel movie ever.” Despite my doubts, I watched it, hoping to be proven wrong. Instead, it was as bad as I feared. Worse, even. Hold your fire, Marvel fans! I’m still majorly disappointed. Best Marvel movie? To me, it was one of the worst.
  • The end of Mockingjay. Although I would have liked one longer film instead of two shorter installments, the ending got me. So did almost every scene with Gale. Poor guy.
  • Bucky as the Winter Soldier. Someone help him remember!
2015 Wishlist:
  • Loki to appear in the new Avengers film. I know he won’t, but I still wish for it.
  • I want an extra-long extended edition of the Battle of the Five Armies. It was the shortest Middle Earth movie, and I wish it had been longer to include certain scenes, such as Thorin’s funeral. I’m hoping when the Extended Edition releases, that scene will be included, among others.
  • The final Mockingjay needs to include more of Finnick. And definitely the “real or not real” moments.
  • Even if they don’t get together, I want Sherlock to pay more attention to Molly. I also want the Christmas special that’s being talked about.

Sky Destrian

Favorite moments of 2014:
  • The Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. midseason finale.
  • Watching Lost and Breaking Bad with my brother.
  • Finally seeing what Sherlock was all about. Now I'm caught up, and I have to torture myself with the rest of you.
  • Reading Second Star by Alyssa B. Sheinmel. It proved to me I could fall in love with reading again.
  • Watching 13 Going on 30. A young Mark Ruffalo is the greatest thing.
  • When Mat Franco won America's Got Talent.
  • Falling into the Once Upon a Time fandom with my sister.
  • Watching the movie Stuck In Love. As a writer, it really resonated with me.
  • The Star Wars: Episode VII trailer. I did not expect to like it that much, but I did.
  • I didn't like the first two movies in The Hobbit trilogy as much as I'd hoped, but the third film was an amazing resolution.
  • Starting this blog!
  • Captain America 2: The Winter Soldier. My heart is still broken, but it was an amazing film.
Hardest moments of 2014:
  • The Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. midseason finale.
  • When the reality show Utopia was canceled. Our love may have been shortlived, but it will never be forgotten.
  • Watching the first X-Men. While I did like it, it was also mildly disappointing. I wanted way more character development than I got. (For that, I might just have to read the comics.)
  • When ----Jim---- died on The Walking Dead. If I cried that much at something that didn't even matter, how much worse will it be later?!?
  • The end of the Tolkien movies. It's truly the end of an era, and I'm sad.
  • Captain America 2: The Winter Soldier. Steve and Bucky. They loved each other so much, and... and... [sobs] I'm with you till the end of the line, pal.
Wishlist for 2015:
  • I can't wait for the midseason premiere of Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. in March. I hope to see some amazing moments with Skye. Also, is it too much to ask for Fitzsimmons to reunite?
  • For Avengers 2: Age of Ultron to live up to my expectations. 
  • A Black Widow movie.
  • A fitting end to The Hunger Games trilogy.
  • More Bucky, more Tony Stark, more Steve Rogers. More Avengers. More quality Marvel. More everything.
  • I hope the final season of Parks and Recreation lives up to my expectations. Same with season 4 of New Girl. 
  • As far as my ships, I'd like Nick and Jess from New Girl to get back together, please! I'd like to see even more BROTPs in Avengers 2. I want Andy and April from Parks and Rec to have a child. I want Penny and Leonard from The Big Bang Theory to get married. I want John and Mary from Sherlock to have a happy ending. I want to see more of Steve and Sharon Carter from the Marvel Universe (and Steve and Natasha). I want more Steve and Natasha, more Clint and Natasha, and more Steve and Bucky. 
  • I want to finally have enough time to watch all the shows I want to see.
  • I want all my favorite characters to be happy, but more than that, I want feels, feels, feels. 
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2015 will be an exciting year! How did your fandoms treat you in 2014? What's on your wishlist for 2015?

The Teen Wolf Sales Pitch

This time last week, I probably wouldn't have recommended Teen Wolf to anybody: I'd never seen it before, and it was a paranormal show on MTV. More specifically, I'd never seen it because it was a paranormal show on MTV.

But it was my sister's turn to pick our show, and she wasn't budging. Now that I've worked my way through the first season, I find her stubbornness commendable instead of annoying, which is definitely saying something. Teen Wolf is actually pretty wizard.

If you haven't given the show a shot yet, there are loads of reasons why you should. Allow me to spell some of them out for you. All spoiler-free, of course.

The Characters
 
 

 
I'm pleased to report that the writers behind TW are stellar in general. But if there's one area they especially excel at, it's writing interesting, complex characters.
 
First off, there's Scott, the show's lead and titular teen wolf. I typically don't like characters in his position--it would be all too easy for him to veer into Golden Child territory, considering the fact that he gets basically everything he's ever wanted in the pilot episode. But he doesn't let any of that go to his head. And instead of fitting the alpha male slot that many male leads fit neatly into, Scott has this mild, naïve, boyish charm--a refreshing change from a lot of other paranormal leads out there.
 
Then there's the much-sung hero of the show: Scott's best friend, Stiles. If Scott's the newfound muscles of the operation, Stiles is the brains. Spazzy, endearingly awkward, and well-versed in sarcasm, he not only keeps things light, but also provides the show with a lot of heart.
 
The rest of the main characters are just as developed. Take Derek Hale, for instance, the mysterious loner who rates somewhere between Grant Ward and Castiel on the scale of social ineptitude. Jackson's the school's jock king and rich jerk, but there's a lot more to him than that, and I was surprised by how much I ended up loving him. Even the love interest, Allison, wasn't that bad. (Considering the fact that I typically hate love interests, that's basically a singing endorsement. Trust me.)
 
The Dynamics
 
Not only does the show take care in fleshing out its characters, it also pays special attention to making sure their personalities bounce off each other in lively, dynamic ways. Personally, my favourite bond is the one between Stiles and Scott--no matter what the situation, they're always great together.
 
 
But any time you get any combination that includes Scott, Stiles, Derek, or Jackson, you're in for a good scene. Scott's and Stiles' relationships with their parents are pretty great, too.
 
The Dialogue
 
Like, for example, the time Stiles' dad catches him in a lie, and they have the following exchange:
 
 
Or when Stiles gets all bilingual to defend his position:
 
 
Or even when Jackson suspects a suddenly athletic Scott of using steroids, and Scott doesn't quite catch on:
 
 
The Cinematography
 
Maybe this seems kind of random in a list of mostly story-centric praises, but one thing I really love about the show is all its camerawork. It's got interesting angles, unusual perspectives, fresh transitions--all sorts of flourishes that you typically only see in movies, not TV.
 
The Plot Twists
 
Thanks to my no-spoilers promise, this one is tougher to sell you on. But you'll have to trust me on this one--then see for yourself. Teen Wolf is the master of misdirection: right from the pilot, the show builds up the question of who turned Scott, who's behind everything, pulling all the strings. And at various points throughout the season, yeah--you'll think you know who it is.
 
But you won't.
 
And when you do find out, your brain will explode in a rain of gory chunks, and you'll have nothing left to do but sweep it all up, mutter to yourself, and then report back to me. Because seriously. Plot twists.
 
 
Your turn. Are you a Teen Wolf fan, or are you planning to start it any time soon? Has anybody seen the movie it was based on? Who's your favourite character from the show?


The 5 Stages of (Fangirl) Grief

It's happened again.

You've stumbled upon this series or book or film, you've gotten attached, and you've found a character that you've basically given away your heart/soul/spleen to.

And now said character has died.

Everyone's heard of the regular old stages of grief, but in this scenario, things play out a little differently. As a practiced veteran of the process, I've lost more favorites than I'd like to count (read: basically any character I've ever held dear).

After all that, the stages of fangirl grief and I aren't exactly to the old-friends phase yet, but I do know them well. They go something like this:

1) La-La-La-Can't-Hear-You

If you're like me, this is the most indulgent of all the steps: You start the movie over and rewatch till just before the character's death, or flip back to their first shining appearance in chapter four, or backtrack to last season, when the world wasn't such a shrew and said character was still in his prime.


Does this do you any good in the long run? The odds aren't pretty. But if it helps you hate the world a tiny bit less, or stop dwelling long enough to get some sleep--well, it's obviously not a win, but it's better than a total loss.

2) Righteous Fury

Denial's fun while it lasts and all, but eventually, the cold truth's going to sucker-punch you right in the gut. And when this time finally comes, you're going to be ticked the heck off--and all sorts of people will be to blame.

"It's the writers' fault!" "If Character X hadn't tripped over that rock way back when, this chain of events might've never happened!" "MOFFAT!"


The whole thing's a mess. Which leads us to the step that marks the midpoint of the process.

3) Listen, Just Hear Me Out...

Not to sound like a raging psychopath or anything, but once you hit the bargaining stage of the game, you start to understand what made Annie Wilkes of Misery tick.

Did she take things too far? Sure. Is drugging and then crippling your favorite author a good way to make friends? Signs point to no. But in an extreme way, she had this bargaining thing nailed: "Give me my favorite character back, and I won't rearrange your ankles into 90-degree angles!"


Heck, you're so desperate, you may even sign those ridiculous online petitions to bring your favorite character back--possibly even write one of those groveling letters to the author or studio.

But in the end, it never does any good. Which leads to:

4) Soul-Numbing Depression

Does this one even need an explanation? No? Cool. I'll just stay curled up in this ball of woe on my bedroom floor, cursing whoever recommended this story to me and ruing the day I was born.

This is also the time when everyday little things remind you of your character--and his death. Personally, I still can't handle the words "tuberculosis" or "lesions," or think of a character waving an unloaded gun around. Still too soon.


5) Obsession

In the classic grief cycle, this is where you accept your fate. Come to terms. Square your shoulders and move on.

But in this case, it's not quite so simple. As a fangirl, it's just not your lot to move on.

On the plus side, by this stage, you've healed enough to look back at said character and his story without flinching and/or triggering a major meltdown. Now it's time to sit back and obsess.

Have you made a board appreciating said character on Pinterest? Cobbled together a fan video or character-inspired playlist? Scoured the internet for trivia, analyses, or other fans' headcanons? Related any and every little thing to something the character said or did?

If not...what are you waiting for?


And now: Your turn. When's the last time you've spiraled into the stages of grief, and what fandom was responsible?

The 5 Stages of (Fangirl) Grief

It's happened again.

You've stumbled upon this series or book or film, you've gotten attached, and you've found a character that you've basically given away your heart/soul/spleen to.

And now said character has died.

Everyone's heard of the regular old stages of grief, but in this scenario, things play out a little differently. As a practiced veteran of the process, I've lost more favorites than I'd like to count (read: basically any character I've ever held dear).

After all that, the stages of fangirl grief and I aren't exactly to the old-friends phase yet, but I do know them well. They go something like this:

1) La-La-La-Can't-Hear-You

If you're like me, this is the most indulgent of all the steps: You start the movie over and rewatch till just before the character's death, or flip back to their first shining appearance in chapter four, or backtrack to last season, when the world wasn't such a shrew and said character was still in his prime.


Does this do you any good in the long run? The odds aren't pretty. But if it helps you hate the world a tiny bit less, or stop dwelling long enough to get some sleep--well, it's obviously not a win, but it's better than a total loss.

2) Righteous Fury

Denial's fun while it lasts and all, but eventually, the cold truth's going to sucker-punch you right in the gut. And when this time finally comes, you're going to be ticked the heck off--and all sorts of people will be to blame.

"It's the writers' fault!" "If Character X hadn't tripped over that rock way back when, this chain of events might've never happened!" "MOFFAT!"


The whole thing's a mess. Which leads us to the step that marks the midpoint of the process.

3) Listen, Just Hear Me Out...

Not to sound like a raging psychopath or anything, but once you hit the bargaining stage of the game, you start to understand what made Annie Wilkes of Misery tick.

Did she take things too far? Sure. Is drugging and then crippling your favorite author a good way to make friends? Signs point to no. But in an extreme way, she had this bargaining thing nailed: "Give me my favorite character back, and I won't rearrange your ankles into 90-degree angles!"


Heck, you're so desperate, you may even sign those ridiculous online petitions to bring your favorite character back--possibly even write one of those groveling letters to the author or studio.

But in the end, it never does any good. Which leads to:

4) Soul-Numbing Depression

Does this one even need an explanation? No? Cool. I'll just stay curled up in this ball of woe on my bedroom floor, cursing whoever recommended this story to me and ruing the day I was born.

This is also the time when everyday little things remind you of your character--and his death. Personally, I still can't handle the words "tuberculosis" or "lesions," or think of a character waving an unloaded gun around. Still too soon.


5) Obsession

In the classic grief cycle, this is where you accept your fate. Come to terms. Square your shoulders and move on.

But in this case, it's not quite so simple. As a fangirl, it's just not your lot to move on.

On the plus side, by this stage, you've healed enough to look back at said character and his story without flinching and/or triggering a major meltdown. Now it's time to sit back and obsess.

Have you made a board appreciating said character on Pinterest? Cobbled together a fan video or character-inspired playlist? Scoured the internet for trivia, analyses, or other fans' headcanons? Related any and every little thing to something the character said or did?

If not...what are you waiting for?


And now: Your turn. When's the last time you've spiraled into the stages of grief, and what fandom was responsible?